Utter Disconcert

Completely abashed. My heart and soul took more than they can take in one night. Feels like a slap in the face followed by a punch to your stomach sucking the air right out of you leaving you on the ground to be kicked on your weak point. That is exactly how I feel right now, I even reckon the literal image sounds soothing next to my inner wreck. My moral conscience always gets the best of me in a rough situation. Need some serious motivational boost to get through this.